Waves...

Waves tend to crash and subside. And I feel it all around me now. I have not been honest with mySelf, which has lead to me being dishonest to those closest to me. We are all looking for that perfect solution to everything: the perfect partner, the perfect financial situation, etc. And as I continue this ego-laid search, I make the waters much more rough for mySelf. I am afraid of where to go, who to talk to at times. And it leaves me speechless. And then I dive into my being and there..somewhere there, lies this quiet and beautiful flower. So perfect. So divine. And the sweet smelling aroma thanks God for the quiet. I want to bottle it up, always.

In the blue sky...

There is a breeze. It penetrates my pores and fills me with Light. I am so thankful for this breeze. It reminds me of how fast life moves. In, out, and through. Divine Light is always shining brightly on us. Hopefully, every single one of us will find all the answers in only this Light.

A box...

In every thing, there is Breath. Among the most mundane there is Life. To be honest, it's hard to find moments of constant Awareness right now.

Among the weeds, there are...

Melodies. Today, my son was calling these melodies. These little weeds with tiny white flowers. My first reaction was laughter, but after a while I thought to myself. Yes. These are melodies. They sing and give thanks to the Divine in a small community of their own. And I had to remind myself how beautiful these melodies truly are.

Night and day...

Among the Light, there is darkness. A darkness that seeps in due to natural circumstances. And beneath us all, lies this darkness, this inherent nature of ours that we either recognize or ignore. We either dance with it or hide away from it. So Light, attracts Light..but what happens to that dark. Does it remain..just sitting there idle-like? I'm pondering these things and I look forward to defining it for mySelf. Is ego strictly related to the Dark? I guess on many levels it may be associated with it. Can ego ever be seen with inherent goodness? Probably not. It's just ego with a little 'e'.

A breath...

What is challenging for me is always looking at that inner Light. That one that we all have, the one that we all forget to look at during chaotic moments in our lives. And I start to catch myself and go, oh, wait a second..here it is. And it's as if the "pause" button has been pressed on my life. As if ONLY the pause button is existing on my inner keyboard of letters, numerals, and voices. I am trying very hard to be mindful of that pause. For without it, I'm not sure where I would be. I heard some live music today. And it was real. The kind of music that takes you away and reminds you that we are all experiencing some sort of human pain or suffering. And it made me laugh inside. Smile. And while my ears were surrounded by soulful words of longing, all I could do was take a breath.

Digging in the dirt....

Today, I planted three irises. One large bulb had a small one attached. The other stood alone. I planted three for two reasons: 3 of us in this family and 3 because it is an auspicious number. It is auspicious since it represents birth, creation, and destruction. Or Brahma, Vishnu, and Siva, the Gods of the Trimurti. Brahma is the God of creation, with his wife Saraswati. Vishnu is the God of Intelligence, his wife Laksmi. Siva is the God of destruction. I feel that so much has happened in my life, this circular pattern of birth, life, and death. And I'm recognizing it everyday in my own child. I hope to pass on these small and significant factors in my life, the number 3 for example. And I continue to let go, slowly but steadily, to this inner Light.